I got a call from my Aunt about an hour ago. The news about Grandpa is very bad.
The speech therapist had evaluated him and recommended that they stop feeding him. If he continues to eat, he has a 90% of exasperating and the pneumonia would come back. When he first entered the nursing home, he signed a living will saying he did not want a feeding tube, which would be their next option. His power of attorney, my cousin Richard, has already said he would honor Grandpa's wishes.
I honestly feel like my heart has been ripped out of my chest and stomped on. I just pray that God doesn't let him suffer a long time. I am torn. I know that he will be heaven with Grandma and that I will see him again but the other part of me is sure going to miss him.
I'm typing this through the tears right now so pardon me if it doesn't make sense.
Love you guys!