Nina,
You need to go to an airport and get a woman to teach you to fly a small plane, it will take away your fears.
I never was scared to fly, I really liked it.
You don't want a license to fly or ground school. just get familar with an airplane.
I have enough hours for my license but I have no sense of direction and my feet are too short, size 5, to taxi and brake ,
you do both with your feet. Well I can do it but it's hard.
try it you may learn to love it. Mandy